Love is all around

Maybe I am feeling weird. Maybe it is just me. I just feel like I am just a replacement for you. Someone to talk to until you go home. Someone you just hang out with because I am around. I feel like you don’t even care about me. Maybe I am over analyzing some of our talks, some of the moments. It could be nothing, yet it could be something. I want to be someone important to you, someone you first think of when you want to talk. Lately our talks come to a minimal. Something that we just do. Maybe it’s me. 

Finals week, you are killing me.

What I learn from cell biology: Sex is the need to fight diseases.

One final done, one to go. After leaving my physic final today, I know I failed. I now lost the motivation to study for cell biology and that final is in two days. Can someone please kill me now?

=]

(Source: abstractdreamer, via jvsayshi)

Found the syllabus for my speech class next summer session and found out I have to give FOUR speeches about 10 minutes long. I hate public speaking. I don’t like it when people stare at me and I don’t like staring back at people. I am already nervous as it is, but now knowing there is FOUR speeches, I don’t know if I can do this. Damn you pharmacy school. WHY MUST YOU REQUIRE A SPEAKING CLASS?!

Got reminded today as to why I can’t ever live at home.

had lunch with my family for the first time in a really long time today. I talked to my cousin about school, work and all the usual small chit chat. Than we started talking about the old time and how my family used to make a big effort to get together and do family bbq for father’s day or any other big holiday event. One of my uncles would be cooking on the grill and we would have all these different types of food and activities. I realized today that I really missed those days. I miss eating chicken wings, egg rolls, and fried rice with the 20+ members of my family. I miss getting together and hanging out and playing word games like guesstures. Ever since my grandma passed away, my family doesn’t make a big effort to get together anymore. There are times where we will do a party or something but there will be someone missing. That never happened before. After going to brian’s family bbq today, I realized that I took it for granted when I was a little kid. =[

My cycle of schooling never stops. 1 more week until finals. 1 week off. 5 weeks of session 1 of summer school. 4 days off. 5 weeks of session 2 of summer school. A couple days off. Fall quarter.

Where is the long extended break where I can sit back and catch up on all my shows and stay up late watching movies and not doing homework. Only 6 more year(if I get into pharmacy school) of this left.

lets end the series today. please.